Reasons

I've come to realize that despite my one and only follower, thanks B, I find some relief in the posts here. The solitude makes me comfortable, hidden behind all the other blogs people will run into before finding mine. It seems as though my electronic journal gives me not only a place to express my feelings, but a place to be alone with them. I like that.

The majority of my time is taken up by school and work, in fact throw in homework and I'd say that 90% of my time is occupied by these pursuits, and they are indeed noble. Yet, still I have people tell me I need to date, perhaps encouraged by my somewhat random desires to find someone. Though the idea of being together with someone is indeed appealing, this solitude I get from my lonely blog seems to tell me that I am ok where I am at. For now.

Its hard to think that I have been home from my mission for nearly 6 months now. Time has passed eerily fast. I fear that I will be dead before I know whats going on here. Yes I have not been on a date since before my mission, yes I am lonely sometimes. But I find comfort in my schooling, in my books, and in my family. So, in short, I do no dislike my life for the lack of people involved, I like it for that very simple reason. I don't need a lot of people telling me they love me. I just need my family and a few close friends, and of course the Lord. But He loves me no matter how long its been since I've done....well since I've done anything. He will always be there, and I know so will my family.

The reasons I've found for being here on this earth drastically outweigh the option of leaving it. It is sad to think that this idea ever crossed my mind, especially while I was serving the Lord. But, as we have been promised, all things will be for our good. And now, not only do I have reasons for not removing myself from this glorious earthly life, I have actual reasons to live. And more life to look forward to. Reasons are what drive me. and reason, is why I write on this blog, with my one follower. The solitude reminds me that one day, this wont just be a blog about me.

Levi's Birfday Party

This weekend I went down to Provo for my good friend levi's birthday party. It started around 9:30 and being fashionable as I am, I arrived late. About 10:15. Upon my arrival I was made immediately aware of the 2 to 1 ratio of girls to guys, definitely a good party to be at, or so I thought. I placed my keys in a large bowl for later on, ate a tiny piece of cake since I try to not have to much sugar outside of work or school. (I don't really ever eat outside of those two locations anyway). So the key game commenced.

The object was to pull out keys belonging to someone of the opposite gender and go find them, then do whatever activity you drew out of the bowl of folded up paper. So on my first go I got a guys set of keys, the functionality of the game was obviously not considered before hand as an easy method could remedy the problem of same gender key matching, and so after finding this dude, realizing it wasn't going to work out, a very nice decently attractive girl suggested that she and I just be partners. Why not. So we drew the activity and it read, "Text sweet nothings to each other." and obvious ploy to exchange numbers. And thus our textual conversation went.
me- "I usually don't get out to parties, but I guess it was fate coming to this one where i got to meet such a pretty girl." Which I thought was a pretty darn good sweet nothing. She read it, we high-fived over its sweetness and she said she would think about a good one to send back to me. She was just about to leave with her roommate ride. Here was her reply....
Aubrey- "Well I couldn't think of a good response to that amazing sweet nothing but it was nice to meet u."

Lame.

So I simply said, "you too" and placed the quite unfortunate rejection where it belonged....

Overall the party was fun. I got to spend time with some old peeps and met some new ones as well. Perhaps I was sending my sweet nothings to the wrong contact, that Megan girl was being awful nice to me.